About Me

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Well, where do I start? I could start at many stages in my life; all very exciting and adventurous in some sort of way. Probably best to start when I met my husband 10 years ago, as this was the turning point in my very emotional and dramatic life. Met Ben through work, we had a wonderful life together, very ambitious, career driven until we decided to started a family 4 years later. The fertility Journey did take 2 years to conceive but we got there eventually and conceived little Thomas, now for someone like me who has no patience what so ever this was a agonizing and stressful wait but well worth it. We moved from our home town Bournemouth to Ipswich with Ben's work, I gave up my careern and then married in Cumbria in 2009. We continued to have 2 more children very easily compared to Thomas, Jesiica and Baby Wilson.
One of the main reasons I have set up this blog is to gather advice and information on how I can be guided through my Journey into Christianity. "We need others around us who know Jesus. Who want God to influence their lives", "The Spiritual Starter Kit" Lesson # 5 - The value of other believers.
I am not perfect nor do I want to be, I am not here to change the world, or the way people think. I am just here to be happy and put the past behind me, wash away all the pain and view the world differently to the way I see it today. I want to be happy in no matter what I do, feel completeness and at peace with the world and admire all the beautiful things it has to offer me, my family and all my beautiful friends. I know this can happen it is just a matter of believing!


Please, I urge you to join my site and welcome any thoughts you may have or advice that will help me on my way! This site would not work without your input. Please note I am dyslexic, so, if anyone wishes to volunteer to edit my posts, by all means feel free.




Friday, 23 December 2011

Lost a follower

I feel terrible, I have lost a follower, someone who seemed really lovely, I think I have offended them by swearing on my last post. Gosh that really is not good. I am so sorry If I have offended you. x O 0 (

I did this site to gain followers not lose them. I feel rather sad!

Thursday, 22 December 2011

My head is a mess

How on earth do you deal with supporting your husband because he is going to his grandfathers funereal tomorrow, but scared ******* because you have had some possible bad news about your sister and you need to get your head around that and support her.!!!

Why Worrying is a Failure to Grasp the Gospel - BibleTool

Why Worrying is a Failure to Grasp the Gospel
Trevin Wax, Author, Pastor



"Don't be a worry wart!" people say… and those of us prone to anxiety promptly begin worrying about worrying too much.
I know the feeling. I worry too. I'm not the "lie awake at night" kind of person. But I notice that when I have a lot on my plate, I give an inordinate amount of attention to little details. Worry consumes me in a variety of ways: I lose patience quickly, I snap at my wife and kids, or I lose my sense of empathy for others. Worry turns my focus to Me.
For a while, I thought that worry was caused by my failure to seek first the kingdom. If I would only fix my eyes on Jesus more, then I would stop worrying. If I would only think about the kingdom more, then anxiety wouldn't be an issue.
Certainly, those who are seeking the kingdom above all things are not preoccupied with food, and drink, and clothing (as Jesus says in the Sermon on the Mount). And yes, seeking the kingdom first is a good action plan if we find ourselves worrying.
But seeking first the kingdom comes after we have been sought by the King. The root cause of worry is not misplaced priorities. It's misplaced faith. It's a failure to grasp the gospel of a God worthy of our trust.
So worry shows up whenever my view of God is diminished and my view of myself gets too big. I worry because my vision of God is skewed. I rest when my vision is fixed.
"Look at the birds of the air!" Jesus said. "God gives them food, even if they don't work and earn their way." There's more to this parallel than a mere animal-to-human comparison about how much more God will care for us. There's gospel here. God has given undeserved favor to the birds. He blesses them apart from their merits.
God's grace and mercy is sustaining us too. Everything we have comes from God's hand. Salvation belongs to the Lord. And the powerful God who saved us is the loving Father who sustains us.
When I reflect on the gospel of a priceless Savior giving his all for undeserving sinners like you and me, then I am assured that our value in the eyes of God does not shift with the economic tides. Our worth is not measured in what we do for God, but what God has done for us.
This is God the Father who sent his only Son to the cross that we deserved.
This is God the Son who willingly took on flesh, lived among us, and died in our place.
This is God the Spirit who prompts our hearts and brings us back into unending fellowship with our Maker.
It is the costly actions of God that give us our value.
In these difficult times, we - the people of God's kingdom - need to be reminded of our true citizenship and true identity. The uneasiness of worry surfaces in our hearts when we lose sight of the gospel of God's grace to the undeserving. Failure to grasp the gospel is what causes us to take our eyes off the kingdom and forget who we are in Christ.
United to Christ, we are part of a royal family. Our older Brother is the King of the world.
Thou art coming to a King,
large petitions with thee bring,
For his grace and power are such,
None can ever ask too much.
- John Newton

Daily Bible Reading from BibleStudyTools.com

Gosh this seems really harsh to me.
Daily Bible Reading from BibleStudyTools.com
December 21, 2011 - New International Version
Colossians 3:18-25
Rules for Christian Households
3:18-4:1pp -- Eph 5:22-6:9 18 Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. 19 Husbands, love your wives and do not be harsh with them. 20 Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord. 21 Fathers, do not embitter your children, or they will become discouraged. 22 Slaves, obey your earthly masters in everything; and do it, not only when their eye is on you and to win their favor, but with sincerity of heart and reverence for the Lord. 23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. 25 Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong, and there is no favoritism

Wednesday, 21 December 2011

The signs are back yippee

After having a bad week, feeling down, unappreciated and going off on the wrong path, I am back. Thanks to Caroline and my book. Oh boy, it feels good, just in time for Christmas.
Felt very lost last night, I had my dinner, the kids were all in bed and I had completed my tasks for the night. But I still felt lost. So I got snuggled into bed and started reading one of my new books.

All I can say, like every Sunday at church the book was talking to me, how fabulous. It was describing exactly how I am feeling at the moment, exactly how I describe my situation to Caroline yesterday. Well all I can say is I am so grateful I chose to start reading this book. Thank you. x

Daily Bible Reading - Very appt as I need to get back on the right path!

Daily Bible Reading from BibleStudyTools.com
December 20, 2011 - New International Version
Colossians 2:20-23 20 Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: 21 "Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!"? 22 These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teachings. 23 Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence.
Colossians 3:1-17
Rules for Holy Living 1 Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3 For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. 5 Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6 Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8 But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9 Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11 Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all. 12 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. 15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Sunday, 18 December 2011

Doubt!

I WANTED TO POST THIS AS I CAME ACROSS THIS ON A OPEN FORM .THIS IS FROM The Little Princess - http://misselizabethmary.wordpress.com/

Each Christian is probably going to go through a time in their lives where things seem pretty tough. New christians this often occurs as the initial "high" (if I dare call it that) wears down and we come face-to-face with the "awsomeness of being human". Please let me reasure you that this is a perfectly normal experience.

1) PERSONALITY: Some people are prone to doubt.
"And when they saw him, they worshipped him: but some doubted." (Matthew 28:17)

2) THE PAST: People are complex beings who have leant and grown from every experience - sometimes these can have positive impacts upon us while sometimes their consequence can be negative.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!” (2 Corinthians 5:17).

3) MEDICAL CAUSES: Often people experience chemical imbalances in thier brains (which can then in turn alter the way they think and affect thier relationship with God as there is a vital connection between the brain and soul).

"A joyful heart is good medicine, But a broken spirit dries up the bones." (Proverbs 17:22) 4) PHYSICAL CAUSES: A lack of sleep, lack of exercise or poor diet, etc. can all result in someone experiencing feelings of doubt and spiritual isolation.
"I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the LORD sustains me." (Psalm 3:5)

5) STRESSFUL CAUSES: When we have too much going on and our mind is full of worry (exams? job? relationships? etc.)
Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light."(Matthew 11:28-30)

6) THEOLOGICAL CAUSES: Sometimes Christians, especially those who are new in the faith, have a poor understanding of who God is and as such we may assume things about Him that are not true.
"Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual but as worldly—mere infants in Christ. I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it." (1 Cor 3:1-2)

7) SINFUL CAUSES: Sometimes the reason that Christians may feel distant from God is due to a specific sin that they are living with. "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:7–8).

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” (Psalm 139:23-24).

Isn't it encouraging to think of JUST HOW MUCH God LOVES YOU -- he is a forgiving God who is patient with his children.
Thank you Little Princess this has really help me through this doubting period I seem to be going through today!