Having a Down Day!

http://eswar.hubpages.com/hub/You-can-Control-Stress

This is not my average down day!! When I feel tired, or fed up with the daily drudgery of daily life and I can just pick myself up by having a 10 second deep breath, or praying. For some reason I have woken up at 5am feeling really tearful and completely doubtful that God really exists! Terrible I know. The trouble is, I feel like I do everything for everyone else. Thing is I like doing everything for everyone else it makes me feel alive, feel wanted, makes me feel like a human being. However, surely their comes a time when you cannot give give give give all the time. Part of me says I should be concentrating on thanksgiving. Giving thanks for everything I have in my life, grateful that I have a lot more than other people. Yes I have done this all week and it has been amazing, it has made me feel great and alive.
Trouble is I seem to be looking after everyone, worrying about how they feel, what can I do to make them feel better when they are sad. Look don't get me wrong I know my friends worry about me, are always there when I need them, this feels different some how. It all boils down to making time for me, taking time out from my daily life, feeling like I am having me time, no not having a hot bath, or reading a book, nor going to the Alpha course, while it is great and self absorbing it is not want I am wanting at the moment. I need time for me!
Maybe I need to look at what the bible says about the way I am feeling this morning, I have a poorly Daddy this morning because he had his Xmas party last night (I can hear jealousy in my head, God does not allow that), I have kids running riot and I feel like I want to run away. Forget the cleaning and up keep of the house I really don't care about it this morning. Gosh I sounds like I am wallowing in self-pity which the bible says you should not do. The bible would say it is Satan taking over my Spirit, I say I just need a break. I am experiencing all the bad things that the bible says I should not feel, that will take me away from God, and yet somehow the last thing I want to do right now is pray, how bad it that. Maybe by writing this down here  (forgetting I started to run a bath for myself an hour ago and my hubby is shouting at me) may make me feel better, it certain will direct me to bible verses that hopeful will rein me back in again and put me back on the right path. So here goes, let see what I can find. One thing I know I can do is get my self an evening out whether it be with a friend or even on my own, who cares, just as long as I take myself away from it all and get away. I feel bad right now as my poor hubby had a night out, feel rather worst for where the last thing he needs is to look after three children while I wallow in self-pity writing my blog.
Just had a thought, how can I be so sad and miserable when I have a great life, great opportunities. Somehow in the mist of all these tears and frustration this doesn't help. Is it possible that you can over work yourself mentally and emotional to the point of exhaustion, where you just need to take a breath, recuperate, refresh yourself so you can then pick yourself up and be happy again, vibrant joyous, kind and loving to the universe and everything in it.?
I know I am grateful for one thing right now and that is for my hubby, thank you hubby for letting me have an hour out while you feel terrible and are struggle yourself. See I have already let him down by not being there for him letting him have a sleep in to nursing his poor fragile head, but right at this moment in time I find I cannot be there for him.
To be continued..................................
Christianity “is not an easy path” but a “demanding climb,” says Pope
1 Corinthians 10:11-13
New Living Translation (NLT)
11 These things happened to them as examples for us. They were written down to warn us who live at the end of the age.
 12 If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall. 13 The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.
How come I have managed to keep calm, peaceful and patient all week and now I am just plain cross and angry. Fed up, exhausted and tired. I am naturally a very selfless person and I just want some me time even to read the bible or work on this blog!

Ten Guidelines for Effective Prayer - Christview Ministries

Thought this would be perfect for anyone wanting to know if they are praying correctly ; http://www.christviewmin.org/spiritual.growth/guidelines.prayer.php 

Ten Guidelines for Effective Prayer
Guideline 1. Effective prayer is based on the revealed word of God.
Because all the scriptures are fulfilled in Christ and help to form our lives in Christlikeness, praying appropriately chosen words of scripture is one effective way to pray. But whether we use the Bible's words or our own words, our prayers should be consistent with the purposes and promises of God as they are revealed in the Bible. Luke 24:44-49; 2 Corinthians 1:18-22; Ephesians 6:17-18; 2 Timothy 3:14-17.
Guideline 2. Effective prayer is grounded in our faith in the reign of God.
Jesus’ basic gospel was that the reign of God is at hand (available to us) if we will repent and believe the good news. Jesus’ miracles revealed the kingdom’s presence. Answers to our prayers also demonstrate the kingdom’s presence. We are to pray with confidence that God is in charge and is prepared to answer faithful prayers. Mark 1:14-15; Matthew 12:28; Luke 7:20-23.
Guideline 3. Effective prayer is directed toward making the reign of God visible.
Jesus taught us to pray, “Your kingdom come; your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” He taught us to, “Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness,” trusting that all our needs would be fulfilled as the kingdom takes first place in our lives. We are commanded to make the kingdom visible in our ministries, and we are blessed by the results. Matthew 6:10, 33; Luke 10:1-12, 23-24.
Guideline 4. Effective prayer is “in the name of Jesus.”
“In the name of Jesus” is more than a verbal formula tacked onto the end of our prayers. It means that the request is offered with the intent that it be found fitting to Jesus’ compassionate character and redeeming, reconciling mission. We pray in the name of Jesus because we are his ambassadors in this world, already speaking and acting as his representatives. John 14:13-14; 15:16; 16:23-24; Acts 3:16; 4:8-12; 16:18; 2 Corinthians 5:17-20; Ephesians 4:32—5:2; 5:18-21; Colossians 3:12-17.
Guideline 5. Effective prayer begins with seeking the Holy Spirit.
God wants to give us good gifts. The very best gift that he can give us is his loving, purifying, guiding, and empowering presence in our lives through the Holy Spirit. Jesus instructs us to ask, seek, and knock fr this gift. When we do not know how to pray, the Holy Spirit will teach us how to pray. When we cannot put our prayers into sensible words, the Holy Spirit will carry the sense of our unintelligible groanings to the throne of God. Luke 11:9-13; Romans 8:26-27; Ephesians 6:17-18.
Guideline 6. Effective prayer is offered from purified hearts.
James notes that sometimes we do not have because we have not asked, and sometimes we do not have because we have asked wrongly to spend the answer on our own passions, our own desires that flow from divided hearts. We cannot be wavering between godly solutions and ungodly solutions and expect that our prayers will be answered. James counsels us to purify our hearts, to get single minds about our trust in God and his wisdom. James 3:13—4:10.
Guideline 7. Effective prayer is offered in the context of the community of faith.
When two or three of us gather in the name of Jesus for the sake of his mission and agree in prayer, based on the leading of the Holy Spirit, the effect of the prayer is powerful. Since significant agreement among any group of human beings does not come easily, the mere fact of agreement sometimes is evidence that we are listening to the Holy Spirit. Consistent with Guidelines 5 and 6, we must be sure that our agreement flows fron the Holy Spirit and not from the spirit of this world. Matthew 18:19-20; James 5:13-18.
Guideline 8. Effective prayer persists.
This is not to say that we need to treat God as an unrighteous judge that we must wear down with our constant pleading. The point is that, if an unrighteous judge can be worn down by repeated pleadings, then God who is already favorably disposed toward the good of his children can be trusted not to forget our needs. We can wait with confidence that our prayers will be answered in the right time and in the right way. We may wish to check back in from time to time to reaffirm our faith in what we have asked and to continue to listen to see if God would redirect our prayer in some way. In the end, even if we must wait through this life, we want to be found still trusting the goodness of God and his power to answer our prayer in the best possible way. Luke 11:5-13; 18:1-8.
Guideline 9. Effective prayer puts its faith in God and not in our own faith.
It is not the quantity of our faith, but the fact that we are willing to put whatever faith we have into play that counts. Even faith as small as a grain of mustard seed will suffice when we take our stand on it. Mark 9:14-29; Luke 17:5-6.
Guideline 10. Effective prayer is something that any believer can do.
Some people may have special spiritual gifts for intercession, healing, miracles, etc. But all Christians can pray effectively. None of us are experts at prayer. All of us will have some learning moments in prayer. But not one of us is excluded from lifting up the concerns of people in need before the throne of God. The key point is that there is no insufficiency in God’s love, grace, power, or wisdom, and that is what determines the results. Therefore, all of us may pray effectively. Just do it. Philippians 4:4-7; Colossians 4:2-4; 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18; 1 Timothy 2:1-7.