Has God been with me all this time?

My husband is just flicking through some photo's on FB and going right back to when we first met. I was speaking to Rev of St John's on Monday about Ben and got quite emotional about how I had met Ben and how he saved me from my poor life I had at the time.
Ben commented on one particular photo and said that I did not know him when he had had long hair, I said no I didn't I think it was about 2 months after you had your hair cut".

Then I remembered, on the day of my interview the lady named Alison Tarrant had for some unknown reason shown me around the office and introduced me to this chap. I shook his hand and smiled sweetly. I didn't realize at the time but that was Ben ,my husband who I then later married and started a family with.

Now the strange thing is that Alison was and is a Christian. I think that is rather spooky. Ben and I didn't get together in the April when we had the hand shake as I was engaged to someone else. But things happened and we eventually got together in the November. We did have a struggle as there were a lot of people who did not like the fact we were dating. However look at us know.

Do you think that was God's doing? Strange as it may seem and for me writing this, God work's in mystical ways and I have awlays felt something, just did not know it was actually God at work.

Coming to Terms With My New Vocation!

Wife and Mother

I have finally come to terms with the fact that I am not an Ex-Project Manager in Software who has lost her Identity but an amazing Wife to my darling Husband and a nurturing Mother to my three Beautiful Children.  Boy!, that feels good.

To be continued.................

Just a Little Thought of the Day!

Think beautiful thoughts

It is funny how; when things go wrong, or disasters in your life happen it actually teaches you a lesson on how to move forward! One would say turning negatives into positives.

Faith Hill - Every Where I am There You Will Be

Christian Singer: Faith Hill

When I Look Back On These Times, And The Dreams We Left Behind ,I'll Be Glad 'Cause I Was Blessed To Get To Have You In My Life.When I Look Back On These Days, I'll Look And See Your Face, You Were Right There For Me, In My Dreams I'll Always See You Soar Above The Sky, In My Heart There'll Alwys Be A Place For You For All My Life, I'll Keep A Part Of You With Me, And Everywhere I Am There You'll Be. And Everywhere I Am There You'll Be.
Well you showed meHow it feelsTo feel the sky Within my reach And I alwaysWill remember all The strength you Gave to meYour love made me Make it through Oh, I owe so much to you You were right there for me
In My Dreams I'll Always See You Soar Above The Sky, In My Heart There'll Alwys Be A Place For You For All My Life, I'll Keep A Part Of You With Me, And Everywhere I Am There You'll Be.And Everywhere I Am There You'll Be.
'Cause I always saw in you My light, my strength And I want to thank youNow for all the ways You were right there for me You were right there for meFor always
In my dreams I'll always see you soarAbove the sky In my heart There will always be a place For you for all my lifeI'll keep a part Of you with meAnd everywhere I am There you'll be And everywhere I am There you'll be There you'll be.

Read more: FAITH HILL - EVERY WHERE I AM THERE YOU WILL BE LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/every-where-i-am-there-you-will-be-lyrics-faith-hill.html#ixzz1f5YTwY00
Copied from MetroLyrics.com 

Beautiful Words from Across the Globe

I was trying to think about what to include in this Blog piece when actually nothing but the beautiful words from such a Beautiful lady!

God works in mysterious ways and through beautiful people, Thank you my wonderful Emma Novak.

Messages

Emma's Word from across the globe;

"Oh my beautiful friend, wow. I am amazed by the works that have begun in you. So amazed. I pray it continues and that God will walk with you daily, revealing a piece of his beauty a bit at a time. That you will truly know how it feels to be free in Christ and all that he has planned for you, plans that were layed before the world was even whispered into being. That you will know and grasp just how deep his love runs for you and that, that love is with you through all times. Whatever the world is telling you or however hard the moment may seem, you can always know and trust he is with you, loving you, cheering you on to do greater and better things in him. 

Thank you Emma, Once again you rescued me just when I was feeling lost. xx

Feeling Lonely

I know that finding my way through the big jungle to godliness was not going to be easy in fact I didn't even know this path existed for me! I felt rather lonely on Sunday with no one I knew at Church. Silly really but I feel rather lonely anyway at home with the three children, no family and long term friends around me. Don't get me wrong, I love my dear friends who I feel God has guided my way! But nothing can replace a sister or mother's unconditional love.

Feeling Lonely

After battling all day today with my roller coaster of emotions I came across this and how I felt a connection to this verse;


All my longings lie open before you, Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes. My friends and companions avoid me because of my wounds; my neighbours stay far away. Those who want to kill me set their traps, those who would harm me talk of my ruin; all day long they scheme and lie. I am like the deaf, who cannot hear, like the mute, who cannot speak; I have become like one who does not hear, whose mouth can offer no reply. LORD, I wait for you; you will answer, Lord my God.


(Psalm 38:9-15)

Spiritual Director, Christian Mentor or just a Mother & Father Figure

Guidance throughout your Life

Do you ever feel like your going on a Journey alone and want someone to share it with you and someone to guide you. I spent a long time on my own before I met my amazing Husband Ben 10 years ago. I do not think it is unfair to force my Journey of Happiness and Godliness upon my husband, even though it is he, who I go to for all my guidance and advice. Even then Ben cannot always help me and I do crave a Father or Mother figure for some sort of guidance in my life, whether it be for parenthood, friendships, financial or just life in General.


To be continued.........

We Stand Together

I love this song, I hear it every day and it gives me strength, I thought I would share it!

Nickleback Album Cover

One more depending on a prayer
And we all look away
People pretending everywhere
It's just another day
There's bullets flying through the air
And they still carry on
We watch it happen over there
And then just turn it off
We must stand together
There's no giving in
Hand in hand forever
That's when we all win 

They tell us everything's all right
And we just go along
How can we fall asleep at night
When something's clearly wrong
When we could feed a starving world
With what we throw away
But all we serve are empty words
That always taste the same

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYviHKkFLMs

My Seven Quick Takes even though it is Saturday!

1. Had a fabulous day today, my youngest Son's first Birthday Party (although his birthday is tomorrow). Went amazing well.. I stayed as calm as I possible could. Tried not to stress too much. I was surrounds by our wonderful friends. Wilson, the poor little fellow was rather ill and feeling sleepy and sick but he managed to pull through after sleeping for a few hours. Nanna and Gramps came, the kids love their grandparents. So now the day is finished I am very tired but satisfied that we made our youngest son proud of his birthday celebrations. Sad to think I may not have another baby again. Never say never.

2. Sleep overrated. It has been 4 years since I placed my head on a pillow, fell asleep only to wake and the light is seeming through the window! I am sure I have been getting better sleep now Wilson is that little but older and sleeping without waking every hour. But he does still get up at 5am. My husband and I have to take it in turns. I would love to sleep for a week do not think that will ever happen now I have children.

3. Having a discussion about breastfeeding with my girl friends and trying not to feel emotional and jealous that I do not breastfeed any of my children any more. I did state that " had my two boys not self weaned and I had to force my daughter at 12 months to stop due to my pregnancy with Wilson, I may still be breastfeed them all now",  maybe not Thomas he is nearly four! You cannot control everything.

4. Love listening to BBC Radio 2, I think it is great, so appealing to me now! I Would never have listen to a radio station like this before, old people do. Maybe I am getting old. Is 36 old?

5. Funny how people judge a book by it's cover. I know I am a mum of three children under four but I did  have a career once. I was a Software Project Manager. Why do I feel the need to have to explain this to people for them to see who I really am!!  Have I lost my true Identity.

6. Do you ever feel like you are living your life to the full. Are you happy. I think we spend so much of are life looking forward we never actually stop and enjoy the present day! Why maybe because life can be really tough no matter what situation your in..

7. Oh my goodness, anyone who has children will know my anguish and pain. Play school let alone school. There are so many rules and regulations on admission it is a nightmare. I am not even getting to the schools application yet, even thought the deadline for Thomas is like now aarrgghhhh!

Fruits?

Fruit of the Holy Spirit is the descriptive name given by the 
Apostle Paul to a nine-point list of Christ-like 
attributes of a true Christian life

What do the following words mean? What do you have to do to fulfil them?

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, Self Control.

How many of these can you pick and say comfortably and honestly you abode by, live by, believe and posses?
Will continue tomorrow!!
I know that I posses the following:
Love - I have so much love to give my immediate family and my distance family. I also put way too much love into my friendships and just hope that is lasts!
Joy - Lacking; as I feel that every day life without my close friends and family seems way too stressful. I feel like I am tackling everything on my own all the time. Probably why I seem drawn to the church at the moment. The church seems to offer me everything I crave! I know I have an amazing husband and beautiful children however, I give, give, give, all the time and because it is unconditional love it is not always reciprocated.
Peace, This is one area I am severely lacking. My childhood and has a lot to do with it. 
Patience, I have none of this, is this because I have three very young children who need me 24/7, ummm I do know I lack this. I am getting better.

Coincidence or a Sign?

24.11.2011 - BBC Radio 2 - Suicide discussion and caller was talking about her father who had killed himself 10 years ago. Selfishness was discussed, and how it maybe isn't that simple. Freaky when you think my father killed himself about 10 years ago, by hanging. Then later that evening in the Alpha course on the Nicky Gumble DVD, discussions about how does God guide us, he spoke about Suicide and hanging. OK now this is rather weird. More than Coincidence?


Do you take notice of things, do you listen to your heart or use your intuition, do you watch and listen?
I came across this very usefull paragraph in an articled publish by Wikihow - How to love Christ:

“Most importantly, watch and listen for the leading of the Holy Spirit. If you are saved, He will speak to you through your spirit; you just have to listen and decide to obey. Jesus said, in Mark 16: "15 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;... 20And they went forth, and preached everywhere, the Lord working with them, and confirming the word with signs following”. 

Coincidence? Ummm not sure

Wednesday Evening
Alpha night; Had a great night, told the group that I had a great experience in Church on Sunday and discussed other peoples thoughts and feelings. It felt good to talk about it with like minded people and I did not feel embarrassed about the whole journey. When I got in the car after Alpha, the song on the radio as soon as I turn the car on was: have faith in me!!! I did giggle!
Now is that coincidence.